Russian Roulette inspired by me...ngeeee :)

video agak sexy ea..mitak maaaaaap :))

Take a breath, take it deep
"Calm yourself," he says to me

tp kan weh..time uh aku mmg xleh nk amik nfas ape bnda dah ha..

nak calm myself pon da xdpt dah..

Say a prayer to yourself

aku da xdek npk bnda lain dah time uh..

aku npk muka sume family aku dah

especially mak aku,akak2 aku yg slma ni aku syg giler !

Say a prayer to yourself

mmg waktu tu aku bdoa pon..

sbb aku rs da xde bnda lain yg patut kite nak demand..

klu saat2 mcm uh nak demand nak mintak bnda2 mgarut aku xtaw lah...hihihi

He says, "Close your eyes, sometimes it helps"
And then I get a scary thought
That he's here means he's never lost

ms aku kena uh..mmg lah aku jaga..xpengsan xhape kan..

tp mata aku tetutp aw..

so otomatikeli la lah kan btul dy cakap

close ur eyes,myb it can help

anddddd

mmg btul lah jgk i got a scary thought...

disebabkan aku rs aku da last breath bcs of hardest and pain to hold breath

sbb uh la aku rs yg i have my own last chance to see my mom and family..

I'm wondering will I ever see another sunrise?
So many won't get the chance to say goodbye

aku pon rs mcm rihanna ckp gak..

if i ever see another sunrise..in case time uh malam kan..haaa

then aku pon tepikir gak ah sempat ke x nih aku nk jumpe mak aku to say gudbye..

sbb aku hrp if it is last chance for me

bialah aku pergi dlm pangkuan mak aku..

even aku lahir dlu pon my mom is the first one who had carry me and feed me..

LOVE u MOM...muahx3 0_0

aku ms kecik mcm ni ah weh...huah3

And you can see my heart beating
Oh, you can see it through my chest

bdebar ???

hahaaa...sangat bdebar waktu uh..

sbb ape anak-anakk ?? sebaaab nyawa sakit mcm hujung tanduk..

so dlm kpla otak aku xlain xbukan MATI...

contoh je aw sbb aku xnaaaak bnda ni jadik..

even dkt korang pon..

sbb aku rs mcm ni "But it's too late to think of the value of my life "

even on that time rmai owg pegi dok tny aku mcm2, aku da xamik peduli dah..

mungkin la owg cakap kite xleh xamik peduli sbb nati kita akn lalai ms kita sakit teruk uh..

syaitan blh datg dlm byk2 cara

tapii

aku wat deeek jerk..mlas nak layan..xreti ke aku dok sakit giler dy boley plak dok mai tny aku mcm2..

ade plak yg dok ckp kat aku "uuhhh segok aih budak ni..melayu ka cina ne ??" 

hahahahaha...senget !! blh plak dok kata lgu tu..bkn nak tlg x..

pastu taw x aku wat pe smntara tgu ambulans dtg ?? HAHAHAAH

aku test gerak-gerak kaki aku aw..aku nk make sure yg kaki aku still ade n still blh bfungsi...huah8

rs risau uh kao xyah ckp ah..risau giler tkt jadik pape kat kaki aku... :'(

I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving, no
Know that I must pass this test

bila aku yakin yg aku blh btahan, barula aku try to calm myself..

sbb aku taw ni adalah 1 ujian yg Tuhan bg kat aku..

utk aku taw mcane rasa kesakitan..

sbb hidup ni pnuh dgn cabaran dan rasa..

suka, duka, sakit, senang...

satu je aku nak ckp..

bila kite da ade dlm keadaan ni..

barula kite rs nikmat dy walaupun hidup dlm kesakitan,kesusahan..

and kite jugak akn tao sape yg akn stay bsama kite wlpn dlm waktu yg sukar mcm ni..

okey..tu je beeb..

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